Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Bah Humbag

I'm not in the Christmas spirit this year. Usually, I love Christams. I love decorating, I love buying presents, I love the smell of Chrismtas trees, I love Christmas cookies. Not this year. Maybe it's because I know what awaits this Christmas season at home, or actually doesn't await. It looks like my dad isn't going to be able to come home from Afghanistan for Christmas, like he was planning, and both of my older sisters and their families aren't coming to Michigan either. And on top of that my little brother is going to Kansas to see his grandparents and my little sister has to work on Christmas Eve. Bah humbag. So since there is going to be limited family around for Christmas, we're not doing a full-out celebration of any sort. I doubt if we'll even have a tree. So this puts me in a bad mood concerning Christmas all around. I'm not looking forward to buying presents because I won't see everyone when they open them, I'm not looking forward to cookies because my dad isn't home to bake them, and I'm not looking forward to Christmas trees because we most likely won't have one.

I suppose I need to get over this. There are so many people who have it much worse than I do. At least I do have family, even if they are scattered all over the world. I should really stop pitying myself. I'm so freaking self-absorbed it's ridiculous. Maybe I should focus on the real meaning of Christmas - Jesus' birth. That's what it's about, not the trees, not the cookies, none of that. But the birth of our savior who came for all of us. That's what it is all about.

4 comments:

Cecilia said...

You have comrades! We like Christmas. We should go to Marquette and eat Thai food and go to the mall and such. I think that we should go on the 28th! But that's just because I'm spending the night there that day... And we can have lots of fun besides. You shall see.

Golda said...

I'm looking forward to seeing all my comrades, that's for sure. It's just actual Christmas Eve/Day that's going to suck. Because those are the days that everyone is supposed to spend with family and not comrades. And I have no family.

Melissa said...

AWWWW!!! You have family! I wish you'd come stay with me for Christmas so you could see the boys open their stockings and presents. That always cheers me up when I'm not with you guys! But, then again, I know you want to see Allie and your comrades. :)

erin said...

awww, don't go on the 28th! I wanna go eat Thai food too, but won't be there then!